I want to sink into the depths of silence again. Is it because it is fall and winter is approaching? Because I want to run away and hide? Because I have talked too much?
Well, maybe some of each but mostly because silence whole-s me. Silence mends all that seems broken, it brings together and embraces pieces that I didn’t even know existed, it makes me remember my wholeness, just as I am. Silence wholes me.
Silence embraces me like no other. There is a deeper journey into a timeless dimension which connects and is all things, all things we know and all things we do not know, within imagination and beyond and beyond the beyond. Silence gently takes my hand, tells me I am OK and we can do this – together.
Every time I am in nature sitting in silence and just sitting with silence in nature, I learn. I remember. I unlearn, remember, learn anew. How each animal or tree just is and does not shout its importance. I remember this way of communing together, every human and being is revered and respected and loved and embraced just as they are, with all their differences and different gifts and shortcomings and different paths of life. It calms my nerves and is a lullaby to my heart.
I want to sink deeper, deeper into silence – that ocean of oceans, that galaxy of galaxies, that pure space from which I am reborn every single time.
say what light do I bear
if not the fire burning within
what music do I make
if not my heart singing
and what about this complete silence.
this silence that bears all words but none
all possibilities in one
though I cannot speak
only silence talks to me
stay with me
it says
stay
with
me
nothing to be afraid of
you are here
you are loved
it is nice
falling asleep
completely awake
completely free
complete in silence
staying with me.
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